Welcome to our journey through foster parenting and adopting. I am so glad you have visited my blog.

My prayer is that through my experiences on this journey, I can be of help to someone else. I want Jesus Christ to be glorified through this blog because it is only through him that I am able to make this journey.

Here we go, let's start this journey together.

With All My Heart
Paula

Friday, April 29, 2011

STORMS HAVE PASSED

The storms have passed and by the grace of God me and my family and friends are ok. The devastation is terrible. So many lives lost. Please pray for our state in this terrible time. May the victims feel God's presence and peace in this time.

Seth turned 18 in March. I can't hardly believe it's possible.

Patton finished up his baseball. He had a good season. He pitched his first no hitter.

Landon is making great grades and enjoying baseball.

Jacob is just the house joy. He makes me smile just to look at him.

Tiny is still with us. I am really not sure how much longer that will
be.

Chyne and I are doing okay. Work has been very slow for Chyne but hopefully it will pick up soon.

God is so good.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Friday, March 4, 2011

LONG TIME NO BLOGGING

Well, long time no blogging.  Sorry for the absence but I forgot how demanding life really is with a new born.  Okay, I have a lot to tell you so here it goes.

Let me start with Seth.  Seth is doing much better with his driving.  I am really having a hard time accepting the fact that he is old enough to be out driving.  Seth is still very active with his youth group and I am so very proud of him for that.

Patton has started baseball season and is doing really well.  He loves baseball and right now he is one of our best pitchers.  He are having trouble with him right now with his grades.  Not bad grades just not putting forth effort to make the grades we know he can.

Landon is my little sunshine. I do not ever have to worry whether or not I will have a hug and a kiss from him.  He hugs me all the time and when I get home from work he most always meets me at the door.  He has officially started baseball also.

Jacob is doing great.  He just turned 3 and is a handful to say the least.  I haven't quite figured out why they call it terrible 2's because from my experience it should be terrible 3's. 

Tiny is doing wonderful.  If a newborn can be spoiled he is.  He LOVES to be held and with cry until you do hold him.  His hair follicle drug screen came back negative, PRAISE GOD.  His mom is doing good.  She has a job and is trying to get her life back on track.

Now back to Jacob.  Like I said Jacob just turned 3 and every year on his birthday his BM calls him but not this year.  She never called at all.  As always, I started worrying about her so I called her to check on her and we had a very good conversation with each other.  Basically though I think she has decided to close this chapter of her life.  We discussed her not calling Jacob and that he didn't know now but later as he got older he would know whether she called or not.  If you remember we did agree to allow her to continue to be a part of Jacobs life but she has decided that it is just too hard.  She explained to me that she wants him to know that she loves him very much but not through seeing him and talking to him.  She just wants me to always tell him.  I explained that I understood and that it was completely up to her but that she had to choose, she either has to be totally in or she has to be totally out.  I will not allow her to make him feel rejected by just coming in and out of his life whenever she chooses.  I respect her decision and I wish her the best. 

 Adoption will never change the fact that I did not give birth to him and that he does have a biological mom out there somewhere.  I will always be Jacob's mom and nothing he can do or say will ever make me stop loving him.  I will support Jacob in whatever decision he makes one day as to whether he wants to find her or not.  I am not sure what he will want to do but I trust that God will guide us through that chapter of our lives with Jacob just as he has done thus far.

Foster care and adoption is not easy but honestly I am so glad God called me to this mission and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

WELCOME LITTLE ONE

I would like you to please welcome our new little one. He that's right he was born just 3 days ago and is beautiful. I am not sure how long he will be here but for now I am just eating him up.




Oh yeah we will call him tiny.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

KNOWING THE RIGHT TIME

Since we have finalized our adoption of Jacob I have been thinking a lot about when the right time is to begin telling Jacob about his birth mom.  Jacob sees her about two to threes times per year and she calls or text usually about twice her month.  When she calls I always let him talk to her and he just knows that she is T.  I know that he is only almost three, but when do I start talking about her to him as his first Mommy, or birth Mom?

Do I start showing him pictures of her and telling him that he grew in her belly and in our hearts?

Do I tell him she loved him and wanted what was best for him (which in a way she did but she still continued her drug use)?

Or, Do I simply just put a picture of her in his room and call her by name and when he is old enough to ask why he has that picture and who she really is then tell him?

Do I just do nothing until he is older?

I just want to do this in a way that is best for everyone.  I do not ever want Jacob to feel like I have kept anything from him.  I want our line of communication to always be open about his adoption but I don't know where to start.

Any advise that anyone could give me would be greatly appreciated.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

STUCK

I have been stuck on 21 followers for a long time now.  I am really wanting to know who follows along so I may also follow you.   Please, please, if you read my blog but are not showing up on my followers list please add yourself as a follower.

I am beginning to feel like only 21 people love me lol.

Friday, January 14, 2011

I DIDN'T REALIZE

My heart has been aching lately for a placement.    Please do not misunderstand me, I do not wish bad things on families.  I wish that there would never be a need for foster homes.  In a perfect world that would be the case, but we do not live in a perfect world and the reality is that there is a need for foster homes and there are tons of children in our world that absolutely without a doubt need to be removed from the horrible conditions they live in. 

Now having said that I want to say that I do feel that God and God alone has placed this desire in me to be a foster mom.  He has called me to the ministry of taking care of his children and that is why I long for a placement. 

We had completely closed our home except for 2 and under girls but today I realized how badly I missed the children and I think we are going to open our home back up to any age or sex child for emergency, short term placements and respite care. 

I think that this decision will be a good chance for us to minister to children who need us but will not tie us down to where we cannot take our little girl if the call comes.  I believe that just as God sent Jacob to be ours forever that he will also send me my daughter one day.  I am just afraid that closing my home to only a little girl is completely out of his will and that is not where I want to be.  So here we are God, use us as you see fit.  We are here for your children whomever that may be.