Welcome to our journey through foster parenting and adopting. I am so glad you have visited my blog.

My prayer is that through my experiences on this journey, I can be of help to someone else. I want Jesus Christ to be glorified through this blog because it is only through him that I am able to make this journey.

Here we go, let's start this journey together.

With All My Heart
Paula

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

ADVICE NEEDED

My oldest son Seth has cerebral palsy. Seth is one of the sweetest, funniest kids you will meet but sometimes he and I really have our moments. He is not confined to a wheelchair nor does he use any kind of walking aids. He does have difficulty walking but he can walk and for that I am very thankful. Seth, I feel has become very dependent on others. What I mean by very dependent is that he really wants someone to do everything for him, from making him a sandwich to helping with homework to you name it he wants help. He does not even want to try to do anything for himself. He says I can't and that drives me crazy because I know he can. I just want to find some way to motivate him and find something that he can be successful at and feel good about. If anyone reading my blog deals with the same issues with your child whether it be cerebral palsy or any other handicap, please let me know if you have any good motivation tools. I would love some new ideas.

Friday, April 24, 2009

COURT

Today is court for Little J. We were a little disappointed earlier this week because we had been told that today was the permanency hearing and we had hopes of knowing if Little J would officially become ours. However, we found out that this is just a judicial hearing and from what I understand this is the hearing that is just a "paper hearing" where all the facts of the case is presented to the judge for review and that the permanency hearing will follow in August which is the point where Little J has been in custody for 12 mos. If anyone reading this blog knows anything different about this type of hearing or if I am just completely wrong please let me know.

Anyway just please continue to pray for our family and that we just always remember whatever happens is God's perfect plan.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

RESULTS ARE IN

Well, paternity results are in and the guy they tested is NOT Little J's father. I don't know whether to be happy or sad because they still have to pursue other possibilities but for now I guess I am a little happy. They may not ever find out who Little J's father really is and that to me though is very sad.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

I have been thinking a lot lately about unconditional love and with that I just realized that I have not taken the opportunity to express to my amazing extended family how grateful I am for their unconditional love for Little J and our family as we continue this journey with the Lord and Little J. We brought Little J into our home and from day one my family has treated him just like he was my biological child. Their are no words to express how much this means to me. I know that for some people bringing a foster child into your family, let alone a child of a different race is sometimes very difficult but I can truly say I never had any doubts or worries of how Little J would be loved or accepted.
Many of my family members read this blog so to you THANK YOU and WE LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

CARDIOLOGY VISIT

Little J had his visit with the Cardiologist today and we got some very good news. The Dr told us that Little J looked great and his heart looked great. I asked the Dr if he thought that his medicines were doing what they should or if he still thought we may possibly need a transplant and he stated that he was very optimistic about Little J's future. He did not see anything that concerns him now and he sees no reason to even talk about a transplant at this point. As long as things go good on meds no transplant. Praise God, keep on praying for him.

Monday, April 6, 2009

IT'S DONE

The DNA testing is done. I have so many emotions about this. I hope he is not Little J's Dad, but is this fair to Little J? I know one day he will want to know who his dad is but it would make things so much simpler for the process if he is not. What if he is his Dad? Will he do what he has to in order to get his son back? Is this the best thing for Little J? I know that in most cases being reunited with your biological parents is supposed to be whats best, but in this case I am not sure because we are the only family Little J really knows. What will it do to Little J emotionally if he has to leave his "family" when he knows we love him and we provide him with whatever he needs. What if a biological family member steps up and wants Little J? I cannot even bear the thought of losing him. I am so scared of what the outcome maybe, but yet I do have a since of peace in knowing that everything that happens is for a reason and God and God alone is the only one who has the master plan for our lives and that we just have to trust that whatever the outcome maybe it is GODS PERFECT PLAN.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

HERE'S YOUR PICTURES WHITNEY

I had a request for some pictures of my son Patton. It is a little joke between my friend Kelly (most of you follow her blog) and myself that we have prearranged the marriage of her daughter Whitney and my son Patton. We laugh about it but if really would be nice if we could do that because they are both great kids.





LOOK WHAT A GREAT DAD HE WILL BE!


BACKYARD SKIM BOARDING

Oh what fun, Landon put on a show for us today in our yard. It rained so much here that we had water standing in our yard. Landon decided that he would skim board for a while. He stayed on the ground more than he stayed up but he had lots of fun.

ON YOUR MARK, GET SET, WIPE OUT!!!