Welcome to our journey through foster parenting and adopting. I am so glad you have visited my blog.

My prayer is that through my experiences on this journey, I can be of help to someone else. I want Jesus Christ to be glorified through this blog because it is only through him that I am able to make this journey.

Here we go, let's start this journey together.

With All My Heart
Paula

Saturday, December 19, 2009

COURT DATE

I found out yesterday that we finally have a court date for our pre TPR hearing. It is January 29, finally it seems like we may be getting closer to the end.  We also have a DNA hearing set for January 13.  I am not sure exactly what this is because we have not had a hearing the other 2 times we did DNA.  I think it may have something to do with the poteintial father being deceased.  If anyone knows anything about a DNA hearing please comment or send me an email.  I am real curious as to what this is.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

RUN! WHILE YOU STILL HAVE YOUR HEART

I was invited to be a part on panel night at our Department of Human Resources GPS class.  I was invited to speak because of the relationship we have built with our birth mom.

As I sat in the class and listened to all the questions the prospective foster parents had and watched as their eyes lit up just talking about the possibility of having foster children in their homes a part of me wanted to say run, while you still have your heart.  Don't get me wrong I was glad to see the people in the class and see them so excited about having children placed in their care, but no one can really prepare you for the reality of foster care.  No one can prepare you for the heartbreak of having to say good bye or having to deal with the stress of wanting so desperately to adopt the child you have in your home but having to deal with all the "policies". There is no way to prepare foster parents for the many different situations they may come in contact with.   I tried to be very open and answer their questions as honest and positive as I could be.  I would never want to discourage anyone from becoming a foster parent.  I just advised them to know their limits and to think with their head and not their heart when called for a placement.

Monday, December 14, 2009

BACK AT HOME

Well I'm posting this entry after the fact but Landon spent the weekend in the hospital.  He got sick last Monday night with a stomach virus and could not get over it. He could not keep a sip of anything down.  We went to the Dr on Thursday and they thought he was at the end of it and that his stomach was just irritated so they told me to start giving him prevacid.  I tried that and of course he could not keep it down.  They then called me in nausea meds which was a liquid and guess what, he could not keep it down either.  We called them back on Friday and they sent us to the Emergency Room where we spent 8 hours getting two bags of IV fluids because he was severely dehydrated.  After the fluids and repeat lab work he still was not better so they admitted him.

He is better now.   We got to come home yesterday morning.  He is finally eating again and up running and playing.  There is nothing scarier than seeing your child just lay lifeless on the coach for a week.  Its great to see him up causing trouble with his brothers again. HAHA

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

NO NEWS

Just a brief update on the DNA status which is no news at all.  I spoke with our SW yesterday and she informed me that they still did not have the DNA order and that once it is received they still had to go through the state forensic lab to get the DNA samples to do the testing.  I am not sure how much longer all of this will take but it seems as though the only people that are in a hurry for this to be done and over is us.  As I have said before though, every day that Little J is with us is another plus for us.  I have to believe that in the end that the judge will feel that it is in Little J's best interest to remain with us even if a family member comes forward.

We did not make the December docket for TPR hearing for BM either.  Hopefully that will happen in January.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE

Psalms 139:13-14 says:  "For you created my inmost being: you knit me together in my mother's womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made."

My friend and I have been talking a lot lately about our children and how different they all are.  Not just our foster children but our biological children also.  We have just been discussing in particular some of the issues we are having or have had with them.  But two of our children in particular that share some of the same struggles and  learning disabilities.

The questions have come up as to how do we know when they really just don't get it or will they be able to take on adult responsibilities as they get older.  How do we trust that we can turn them loose in a car, to go out with friends and make the right choices, will they ever be able to live independently and raise their own families.  These are just a few of the questions we have.

Last night I was reading in my bible, actually I was looking for something else and then the Lord led me to the scripture above and it made me stop and really think.  I felt a peace come over me like no other.  The Lord was telling me I believe that he created all of these children, in his own image and that they are indeed fearfully and wonderfully made.  All the worries we have as parents he already has in the palm of his had.  He created them and he does indeed have a plan for each child.

It is so hard sometimes for me to think about these foster children especially.  So many times I wonder why, why do these sweet babies have to go through some of the awful things they go through, where and who will I wake up with, how do I feel safe, no one to attach to, no one to guide and discipline them, no one to rock them to sleep at night, to one to read them a story or say a bedtime prayer with.  But yet they are fearfully and wonderfully made and God does have a plan for their lives whether it be staying with their biological families and them getting help or going to a Christian foster home that can teach them all about the Lord and how much he loves them no matter what.

I know I have probably rambled but to sum it all up, what I really want each of you to get is that whatever problems you are facing with your children they are fearfully and wonderfully made and that we are just blessed beyond what we deserve to have these children placed in our care from God to help guide them and raise them to be a child after Gods own heart.