Welcome to our journey through foster parenting and adopting. I am so glad you have visited my blog.

My prayer is that through my experiences on this journey, I can be of help to someone else. I want Jesus Christ to be glorified through this blog because it is only through him that I am able to make this journey.

Here we go, let's start this journey together.

With All My Heart
Paula

Friday, February 26, 2010

WOW

Wow, you are not going to believe this but I actually did get a little bit of information today.  I found out that Lab Corp does have both DNA samples so we should get the results by next week.  I am so nervous.  I want to know but I am scared to know.  I did have a long talk with the SW today and explained to her that I feel that they should go back and talk to the judge about whether they have to notify the family if this deceased man is the father.  The last court date we had the judge said that if he was father his rights terminated at death.  That being the case I would think his ruling would over ride DHR policy.  I just do not want these people to know because it is a drug family and that is why they think the man was killed.  DHR is not going to support a move for Little J nor does the attorney even if a family member says they want him.  If they tell them and then deny them I will be concerned for his safety.

I also learned today that the TPR trial has been set for April 29 and if all goes well we may have his adoption finalized by June.  That would be wonderful.  Keeping praying for us as I know you have been.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

FOR WHAT

We have an ISP scheduled for tomorrow morning at 10:00.  For what, I do not know.  I guess we are going to go and listen to SW tells us, as usual, she still doesn't know anything.  I am so frustrated right now I could scream.  We have been trying to get DNA on this last possible father since October and we still have no results. To make matters worse this is the man that BM has said from day one was his BD.  I am so tired of dealing with my SW.  No offense to you SW's that read my blog but she is ridiculous.  She puts everything off and NEVER gives me a straight answer.  A good example of the way she puts off things is that in January at our home visit she asked did I need a check for Little J.  I said yes and she said okay I will get you one.  To date I still do not have it.  This was supposed to be for pictures and clothing and also I called her back and asked for his birthday voucher and I do not have it either.  This is what I have dealt with this whole case.  I am just sick of it and ready for him to be ours.  I am tired of home visits, having to ask permission to go out of state, having to report about Dr. visits, having to deal with waiting, I just want closure on this case and to know without a shadow of a doubt that he is ours forever.

Okay, thanks for letting me vent.  I feel better now.  I will update you on probably nothing from ISP tomorrow.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITTLE J

My baby is 2 today.  I cannot believe how time is just flying by.  We are so blessed to be given the opportunity to have Little J in our family.  We love you so much Little J, Happy Birthday.  We had his party last night and he loved it.  His favorite part was blowing out the candle.  He probably blew it out at least 20 times and then all the little kids had to .  Needless to say we did not eat the part of the cake where the candle was.


Let's ALL take turns blowing out the candles!












I love my new clothes, I will try them on for you.











Oops, these are my shorts.

Friday, February 19, 2010

THE HARDEST CALL I HAVE EVER MADE

Yesterday I made the hardest call I have ever made to my Social Worker.  I had to call and let her know that at this time we can not bring Faith into our family.  This was a heart wrenching decision because everything about her fit perfectly into our family except for the timing.  We are just at a very hard time in our life right now.  We still do not have closure for Little J and his adoption.  We believe in our heart that he will be ours forever but we will not know that for sure until we sign those papers.  Therefore, we just felt that we could not place our family in another situation where we could possibly have to give up a child.  There was no way for SW to promise us that Faith was adoptable because the judge did give her BM 90 days to move back to our state, get a job, and a place to live and stay clean.  So far she has done 3 of the 4 things.  Do I agree with the decision to give her 90 more days?  Absolutely not, she has been given numerous chances and faith has been in and out of care since she was born however, that was out of my control.

I already miss that sweet little Faith.  Even though she never moved in she stole a piece of my heart.  I know that for now we have made the right decision for our family and God has given me a peace with our decision.  Faith may end up being the daughter God has for us but it has to be his timing and right now we just did not feel it was the right time.   I do believe that once our adoption is final with Little J that God does have that little girl out there for us.  I believe he will complete our family with that one sweet girl.  I am just trusting him and whatever happens in the future I know he has us all in his hands and all he wants from us is complete obedience.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

SUNSHINE

Sunshine Award

Thanks Kelly for the sunshine award.  Kelly is my very best friend in the whole world.  I could not have made it through this journey without her.  Check her out at The Missing Piece she is wonderful.

I also received the award from Barb at From Foster Child to Social Worker this lady is an amazing woman.  She has overcome so much and she is a great writer.  Ok, so just follow the rules below and give someone else a little sunshine.

The rules are:
1. Post picture on your blog or in your post.
2. Link to the person who gave you the award.
3. Spread the sunshine to 12 blogs.



1- The first award has to go to Brenda at another small adventure.  This Lady is wonderful she is a Mom to 4 children and a true advocate for waiting children.


2-  The next award will go to Tina at hammond adoption story.  Tina is a wonderful Christian Mom and has adopted an amazing little boy.


3-Amber at baker bunch-life is a great lady whose is a mom to more than one special needs child and is a blessing to follow her blog.


4-Check out J and J at a safe place to land.


5-The next is from the stork 23 they are just about to adopt their first child through foster care.


6-Another blog I have just begun to follow is joyous journeys this family has an amazing story that will touch your heart.


7-The next blog is daily life-sanford style this too is another new blog friend but she is what I wish I could be in my foster care journey.


Sorry I didn't send to 12 but please enjoy the sunshine.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

DRIVERS PERMIT

Seth is now officially driving.  He got his permit and we are now in training.  Oh my goodness this is scary.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

NOT WHAT WE EXPECTED

When we woke up yesterday morning at 6:00 a.m.3 inches of snow by 8:00 a.m. is not what we expected.

Here is a peek at our family fun.

OUR VISIT WITH FAITH

We had another visit with Faith yesterday and again it went great.  She is warming up very appropriately to our family.  She does have some hesitation around the two older boys when she arrives but by the end of the day ALL the guys are putty in her little hands.   We will visit again this week and then maybe have an overnight this weekend.  Can't wait to see her again.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

FAITH

Our visit with Faith went great.  The foster parents dropped her off to us at 8:00 a.m. and picked her up at 4:00.  She was a very sweet, adorable little girl.  I have to say that God has not shown me yet that she is not "my girl".  I loved everything about having her here.  The boys had a good time with her.  She was a little shy around the older boys at first but warmed up fairly quickly.  She took to Chyne right from the start.  I sent my social worker a text and asked her did she have to leave ha ha and she said yep sorry she has to go home today.

Due to some circumstances about this case and my other placement,  I will be setting up another blog that will be private.   I have been considering this for a while now and I just feel that now is the time to do that.  I will post here when I have that blog up and going and then if you would like to follow send me a private email.  I will continue this blog also but I just feel I need to do this at this time.

Check this picture out of Little J playing dress up.  So fun to have a little girl in the house.

Friday, February 5, 2010

FIRST VISIT

Our family will be meeting our possible daughter/sister tomorrow.  We will call her "Faith"  for the blog.  Please be in prayer for our family.  Our prayer is that God will give us a clear answer.  He will either show me that she is not right for our family or that he will show Hubby she is.  You all know from reading my blog I would take her yesterday but it has to be right.  Not just for us but for her also.  She has been through so much in her short life that I just want what is the very best for her hopefully it is us but if not I pray that God will send her family to her quickly.  Thanks for all your prayers and support.  I will update you after the visit.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

COMMENTS

Comments, I love comments but I do not get very many.  Please guys if you read my blog leave me comments.  That is one of the joys of posting to me is to get to read what people have to say.  I really enjoy hearing if you have a different opinion, you agree, disagree, or just encourage.  Thank you to those of you who do comment but don't stop reading if you don't want to comment.  It's okay because I won't stop blogging.