Welcome to our journey through foster parenting and adopting. I am so glad you have visited my blog.

My prayer is that through my experiences on this journey, I can be of help to someone else. I want Jesus Christ to be glorified through this blog because it is only through him that I am able to make this journey.

Here we go, let's start this journey together.

With All My Heart
Paula

Friday, April 30, 2010

JOY IN THE SMALL STUFF

I have to say  I am so thankful for Christian coaches and teachers in our schools.

Seth will be moving schools in August because the school he attends only goes through the 9th grade.  I have been a little apprehensive about this move because I guess I try and protect him too much and every one at this little school is aware of the problems Seth has and has always been great with him.

Last week Seth came to me and asked could he ask the football coach if he could be the manager.  I sort of put him off because I wasn't sure if they would have a place for him or if they would really want him there and I also wanted to talk to the coach first because I didn't want to put him or Seth in a bad situation.  Wednesday afternoon when I picked Patton up from practice I had an opportunity to speak with the coach and the conversation went something like this.

Me:  Hey coach I have something I need to ask you and if you do not have a place or can't do it I understand but Seth was wondering...

Coach:  Yes he can, before you even finish your sentence just tell him to be here tomorrow I have a job for him.

Me:  (with tears in my eyes) Thank you so much I will have him call you because I want him to ask also.

I wish you could have seen the smile that came across Seth's face when I told him.  He was thrilled and he said to me "I may not can play football but now I can be with my friends and be a part of the team."  What a joy to see him be so happy over something so small.  We take so much for granted, something like this just helps you see things a little differently.



Saturday, April 24, 2010

HOW DO I KNOW

About a month ago, out of the blue, an old friend of mine called just to chat and to let me know that she knew someone who was pregnant and because of her situation was going to place the baby for adoption.  She wanted to know if we were still interested in adopting.  I told her I would love to if I could adopt a girl this time and I just let it go at that.

This past Thursday I received another call and it was from the same friend and she had let's just call her Joy with her and she wanted to talk to me about the baby.  We talked for a few minutes and she said she was for sure going to put the baby up for adoption and would like for it to be open and would love for us to consider being the parents.  I explained to her that although I love my boys very much and would take 10 more at this point we could not even consider another boy.  I told her we might would a girl but I would just have to pray about it and see what happens.  She told me she understood and also told me she would be having an ultasound on Friday to find out the sex and she would call me as soon as she got out to let me know.  Her appointment was at 930.  By 200 I had not heard anything and so I assumed she was having a boy and that was why she did not call.  Then at around 500 my phone rang and it was Joy.  She called to let me know that guess what ITS A GIRL!!  My heart stopped.  I think a part of me wanted it to be a girl but the other part wanted it to be a boy and then it would be easy because we would have said no.

I am so confused.  I do not know what to do.  This is the call we had dreamed of for so long and now so many things have changed.  We now have Little J and would never ever change that, we have 4 children, and now hubby is saying no.  He says no more children.  I know it would be finacially hard for us to add another child but how do I know what to do.  I feel like this is the daughter God has had for us.  I was not pursuing another adoption I was not even thinking of ever having a daughter know and then out of no where this call came.

Even though hubby says no I told him she is not due until August 12 and I will ask again.  His response was ask again I may say yes.  I did ask him to just pray about it.  I told him I did not want an answer now just pray.

This is a newborn baby girl and she can be ours with no DHR,  no 2 year wait, no waiting on judge to decide our future just a matter of the parents waiving parental rights and the attorney doing the rest.  I cannot even imagine how this would be, to go to the hospital and bring home "our daughter."

Please pray, pray, pray for us.  Please just pray that God will reveal to us if this is truly "our daughter" because I know if this is his plan for us he will take care of all the details and provide everything we need.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

OUTSTANDING PLAYER

While we were out for spring break Landon went to a baseball camp K-2nd graders.  He had a great time.  At the end of the camp they gave out an outstanding player award.  Landon received this award.  We were so proud of him.  This award was given to the player that had not only great baseball skills but also to the one that used good manners, paid attention, did what the coaches asked.  Way to go Landon.

SURVIVAL

Well, we are back from our camping trip and we all survived.  We stayed in a tent, yep all 6 of us but believe it or not it wasn't so bad.  Thanks to my Mom and Dad we had a very big tent and plenty of other camping gear.  The boys had a great time riding bikes, fishing and hanging out with a lot of their friends.  Little J did great.  Of course he did since outside is his favorite place to be well his almost favorite place.  His most favorite place is in his Momma's lap and I love it.  Below is a couple of pictures of the campsite.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

A CAMPING WE WILL GO

We are leaving today for our camping trip.  This should be a very interesting trip.  I have always camped as a child all the way up until we got married BUT it was ALWAYS in a travel trailer.  I have never really camped in a tent before.  I am not really excited about that but I am looking forward to this family time, I think ;O)

Update you as soon as we return.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

A SIX YEAR OLDS VIEW OF FOSTER CARE

I know that sometimes people wonder how bio children of foster parents feel about fostering.  Below is a little interview I conducted with Landon.  We may get yes or no answers but you will get the idea.

Mom:  Were you happy when your parents decided to be foster parents?
Landon:  yes
Mom: Why?
Landon: i wonat to help
Mom:  Do you like sharing your toys
Landon:  yes
Mom:  Do you like sharing your Mom and Dad with other kids
Landon:  yes
Mom:  Do you get jealous when the foster children take up a lot of your parents time
Landon:  no
Mom:  How did you feel when the first children we had had to leave:
Landon:  sad.
Mom:  Did you want more children after they left
Landon:  yes
Mom:  What did you think of Little J the first time you saw him:
Landon:  i love him
Mom:  Do you think of Little J as your brother just like your biological brothers
Landon:  yes
Mom:  After Little J is adopted, do you want your parents to continue foster care
Landon  yes

Landon adores Little J and has never shown signs of jealousy. I do believe that this journey was a desire God placed on my childrens hearts also.  They may not have ever recognized this if God had not placed it on our hearts but I do hope that when they are grown that they would continue fostering with their families.

LEARNING TO RIDE MY BIKE

After 2 years of trying to get Landon to learn to ride a bike, he finally did it.  It took a bribe but it worked.  He wanted to go on a camping trip this week while we were out of school so I told him he had to learn to ride before we could go.  Looks like we are going camping.  He said Momma I love riding my bike.  I can't keep him off of it now.  Seth decided he would give the little bike a whirl so there are some pictures of him also.















Tuesday, April 6, 2010

EXCUSES

I hate excuses and that seems to be all I am getting lately.  The latest excuse with the publication is that the legal had to be sent to the state office to be proof read.  Are you kidding me?  An attorney has to send a legal to state office to be proof read but "if he doesn't hear from them soon he will just go ahead and publish,:"  Whatever, I am sick of this.

I also asked about our court date for April and that does not exist anymore.  "Due to the time frames your new court date is July 23.  Yep, that's right July 23. I cannot begin to tell you how mad I am.

Okay thanks for letting me vent.  I am just going to take a deep breathe and try to remember that everything is in God's perfect timing and even though I sometimes don't like the time frame it is God's perfect plan and it is indeed PERFECT.

Friday, April 2, 2010

NOTHING

Still nothing to report about the publication except that it has not been done.  The only thing I can tell you is now that they have been dragging their feet yet again at DHR, we will not be ready for our April 29 court date.  I am so tired of the delays.  I really do not understand what the hold up is because I thought this was going to be the easiest part.

Maybe we will be ready for a May court date.  We shall see.