Welcome to our journey through foster parenting and adopting. I am so glad you have visited my blog.

My prayer is that through my experiences on this journey, I can be of help to someone else. I want Jesus Christ to be glorified through this blog because it is only through him that I am able to make this journey.

Here we go, let's start this journey together.

With All My Heart
Paula

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

SHOPPING

I am in the market for a new (well new to me vehicle).  I started out looking for about a 2007 suburban or expedition with no luck and now we are looking at vans.  I have NEVER wanted a van.  Hubby kept telling me go look at vans, they will get better gas mileage, easier loading and unloading children, more affordable etc.  I finally broke down and started testing driving the Chrysler Town and Country Touring or Limited edition.  I have to admit I do like the van, I think.  Here is where you come in.  If you drive this mini van or some other one that you could recommend please let me know.  I want to know the good and bad before I purchase.  I am still not 100% sure I want to go the van route but I am leaning more that way now.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

CRAZY FOR FOSTER KIDS

I received a call last night about 2 babies in need of care.  They were ages 2 and 1.

Hubby said NO absolutely not.

I said PLEASE these babies need us.

Hubby said you are crazy about these foster kids and I know you want them but we cannot take 2 in diapers because we would then have 3 in diapers counting Little J.

I had to decline but not willingly.

I cannot help that I have a heart for foster care and that no matter how hard if will be I will be willing to take these children.  It broke my heart to say no but I know there will be others.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

CHANGE OF HEART

Sometimes in life when you think that something is just to good to be true it just may be.  God knows the beginning and the end and we have to trust that always.

A few months ago I shared with you about a possible adoptive situation that I was approached with.  From the very beginning of all of it I just didn't have a good feeling about it for our family.  It was supposedly what we had always wanted but it still just didn't feel right.  I found out this week exactly why, Mom has had a change of heart.  She will be keeping her daughter.  This was not the baby girl God had for our family and he protected my heart and my families and the hearts of the other family I contacted.

To the other family, I am so glad God is in control of our family and yours.  He knew that in the end this situation would rip all our hearts out when Mom changed her mind.

I pray that God will protect this family and guide them in the right way as they raise their children.

Thank you God for protecting our families.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

HOME AND DOING WELL

Seth is home from surgery and is doing well.  He has been very sick at his stomach the last couple of hours but I finally was able to get phenergen to stay down and he has eaten some supper now.  The Dr was unable to repair the cartilage because it was so damaged so he just trimmed it away.  He said the only disadvantage to that is that he could develop arthritis in that knee at an earlier age.

Thanks for your prayers.

SURGERY TODAY

Seth's knee surgery is today at 2:00.  He could not have anything to eat or drink after 5 this morning so his dad and I got up at 4:15 and made him breakfast.  Please remember him in your prayers today.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

QUICK UPDATE

I posted on 06-06-10 that BM was home and had called to see Little J.  I told her we were on vacation but to give me a call back over the weekend and we would arrange something.  To date she has not called back again.  I do not want to think the worst but it is very hard not to.  I really think she has not called because she is using drugs again.  She was gone away for about 7 or 8 months and I had really hoped that during that time she could rehab.  She went through lots of counseling and other programs while away.

I really do feel for her and her situation, but no one can change it but her.  Maybe I am wrong.  Maybe she just hasn't called because she has decided it is easier for her not to see him.  I don't know why she hasn't called I just hope she is okay.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

THE WAITING GAME

Do you ever feel like that all you do in foster care is play the waiting game?  You wait on a call from DHR to let you know they have a child for you, you wait to hear when and where you have to take the child for a visit, you wait and see if BP will show or call, you wait and see how many chances DHR will give the BP's to get it right, you finally think you are almost there and your child is finally going to be adoptable and then you just wait.

 Oh my, I am so tired of waiting.  I am so ready to make Little J our own officially.  I am ready to show you pictures of him and him with our family.  The time is up for anyone to come forward and say they could be Little J's BF and we are  waiting now to go to court.  Court will be July 23 for the TPR hearing and then guess what, we wait again.  We have to wait 14 days after the TPR is entered before we can even begin to file our adoption paperwork and then we have to wait on a new home study and yet another court date.  This waiting is the pits but it will all be worth it in the end.

Oh, I almost forgot.  I called our foster care worker this past week and let her know that we are ready for another placement if a child came in to care that she needed us for and that would fit within our criteria for what is best for our family. (girl only lol)  She said she would call us as soon as she got a placement.  I am very excited about the possibility of a placement.  I am at a point that I feel like I can do this even if it is just for a short term placement.  I do not have to have a child that is only adoptable.  God is preparing my heart to just be a foster Mommy for now and who knows what he has up his sleeve for us.  Our daughter may be here before we know it or God may just have tons of little girls he needs me to be a Mommy to for just a little while.  Whatever his will is I am ready.  We will just WAIT and see.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

SUMMER INJURY

Two days before school was out Seth slipped down a hill and twisted his knee.  He complained about it a little bit in the beginning and then didn't say `much after that until the last few days.  I took him in to see the orthopedic  doctor yesterday and he sent him for an MRI.  We went back today and Seth has a torn meniscus.  He will be having surgery June the 22.  Please remember Seth in your prayers.  He has a lot of anxiety about the procedure due to his past experiences with surgery.  His doctor told him it should be a piece of cake compared to the other procedures he has had but it is hard to convince him of that.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

SHE'S BACK

BM called me Thursday night while we were at the beach.  She is back from her stay in the prison system and wanting to see Little J.  I will probably meet her somewhere this week and let her see him and then that will probably be it until maybe Christmas.  I will allow her to see him on a very limited basis as long as she stays clean.  That was the deal from the beginning.  I will give her one shot and if she goes back to using again all visits will stop.  I am not DHR and I do NOT have to keep giving her chance after chance.  I want her to do well, I want her to succeed in life and be able to know her son but only on my terms.  She has done enough damage.  I have a friend that I was talking with earlier this week and I told her I feel bad that I am not wanting BM to be around Little J a lot and she told me why should you feel bad about visits when she never felt bad for the things that she has done to him.  I guess she is right.  I just want what is best for Little J and I do not want to ever give him a reason to resent me.  Please continue to pray for our situation.

Friday, June 4, 2010

AT THE BEACH

We are beach bums this week. We will be home Sunday. I will post pictures then.