My heart has been aching lately for a placement. Please do not misunderstand me, I do not wish bad things on families. I wish that there would never be a need for foster homes. In a perfect world that would be the case, but we do not live in a perfect world and the reality is that there is a need for foster homes and there are tons of children in our world that absolutely without a doubt need to be removed from the horrible conditions they live in.
Now having said that I want to say that I do feel that God and God alone has placed this desire in me to be a foster mom. He has called me to the ministry of taking care of his children and that is why I long for a placement.
We had completely closed our home except for 2 and under girls but today I realized how badly I missed the children and I think we are going to open our home back up to any age or sex child for emergency, short term placements and respite care.
I think that this decision will be a good chance for us to minister to children who need us but will not tie us down to where we cannot take our little girl if the call comes. I believe that just as God sent Jacob to be ours forever that he will also send me my daughter one day. I am just afraid that closing my home to only a little girl is completely out of his will and that is not where I want to be. So here we are God, use us as you see fit. We are here for your children whomever that may be.